First of all, Happy new year, ya. Finally the adventure is beggining again, cheers for the beginning 🥂. Its been a month or years we know each other. I know that you know i love u but i love u more than you know. Many days pass and not a day goes by that i don’t think about you, Bas. I thought abt how life would be if i never met you. This January make me remember all about us. Everything seems to be playing back (in my mind ya)..
“sometimes i wonder what life would be like if we had never met, if we never collider in this lifetime or learned what the curve of each other’s faces felt like who would i be if i had never held ur hand. who would i be if i had never been loved by you.
you’ve helped through some tought times without knowing it. u’re such a bright light in this world. i hope u know that i appreciate u more than u’ll ever know. no matter how this ends, im eternally gratefull bcs once upon a time, i had you.”
I was thinking what if it turns out you already have a replacement for me there. I wish and i hope, she will treat u well and i hope u taking care of her.
Kalau kamu bahagia, aku adalah salah satu orang yang akan ikut merayakan kebahagian itu. Tapi, kalo kamu lagi sedih, aku juga salah satu orang yang akan sedih banget. I always pray for u, ada nama kamu di setiap doaku. I really mean it.
Maaf kalau adanya aku disini menghalangi kamu untuk melakukan apapun. Maaf juga kalau adanya pesan dari aku bikin kamu gak nyaman. Bas, aku gatau sampe kapan rasa ini ada mungkin lebih lama atau bakal segera memudar, aku juga gatau. Tapi, untuk melupakan aku, itu gak masalah bagi aku. Aku tau kamu punya kehidupan lain selain disini, aku tau kamu harus tetep menjalani hari hari kamu seperti biasanya. Jadi, kalau suatu hari (atau sudah) kamu nemuin kebahagiaanmu disana, please do it and i'll be happy for u here.
Tapi, ada satu doa yang paling kenceng aku sebut setiap hari. Itu ketemu sama kamu, tapi juga gak akan kewujud kalo kamu ga izinin itu.
